Tapering off — critical week
September 24, 2020 § Leave a comment
Day six since I stopped Trinicalm Plus (Trifluoperazine and some other stuff). The withdrawal symptoms are taking their time reducing. Had my first heart beat skip today since I stopped taking the drug for anxiety and depression.
I slept a bit past even the notification for our son’s first morning online class today. Got up just in time. Did ten pushups, two better than the last three days. Had my first mug of coffee. Then two dosas (like pancakes) for which my wife had made the batter. Dosas are particularly common in south India. Chased the two dosas down with another mug of coffee. That’s about all the coffee I drink in a day.
Was able to work till lunch but nothing came out of it. No good story ideas, and nothing in hand for the current issue of the magazine I write for. Post lunch was a washout too, as I just couldn’t work. Sat up in bed, propped up against pillows, leaning back, with my eyes closed. Almost dozed off, but not quite. For two hours.
Got off the bed to make a masala base for some instant noodles I was planning to cook for dinner, which is our usual Thursday night dinner. Added some left over bhaji (a spicy vegetable curry with onions and tomatoes as the base) from yesterday into the noodles as well.
Didn’t miss my evening walking in the living room for 90 minutes. I’ve incorporated 30 minutes of the figure of eight walking right into it. Did a five minute yoga routine as well, following the walking.
We all enjoyed the noodles. Was washing up, when my heart skipped a beat. It always scares me quite a bit, and I take time to get back on even keel, even though I know that it’s a withdrawal symptom and nothing more. If I get through the week I’m hoping it will be easier dealing with the withdrawal symptoms in the days that follow. If I get to the two week mark, from then on, I should be okay. This week is the critical period though, when the craving to get back on the drug is terrible.
The fourth day was the absolute worst. From the fifth day onwards, each day has been a bit better than the previous one, but that’s only relative, whereas the overall discomfort from not taking the drug has been horrible and the craving is bad. But I need to get off of this drug.
#anxiety #depression #taperingoff