First challenge — getting out of bed
August 24, 2020 § Leave a comment
I got out of bed at 8:15 a.m. today as well, the second consecutive day that I did so, without the compulsion of the responsibility to go give my phone to my son so he could see the Google Meeting code his teacher had sent, for his first online class of the day. Celebrated by enjoying the first of my two mugs of coffee of each morning.
My therapist says I can try to progressively to get out of bed 15 min earlier each successive week until I’ve hit the time I want. 6 a.m. would be good. 5:30 a.m. would be perfect. It would give me the two hours I need in the morning to catch up with the most important tech news and analyses of the day, which would help trigger my own ideas so I can attempt an online story for the day. It’s not easy to do this later in the day as many other things come in the way.
Three online stories a week, including an opinion for Thursday or Friday would be very good, in terms of being productive, in addition to the print magazine stories.
The magazine stories, especially those where I’ve transcribe phone interviews, are a source of anxiety. Transcribing interviews is sheer drudgery and software — like Descript — that can do this is expensive for individual users like me, as my company will not reimburse such expenses. And because transcribing is so boring, it feeds into my favourite self-sabotage practice — procrastination.
That is how I came up with my time table grid for getting my transcriptions finished on time, which I wrote about in my yesterday’s post. I’ve three interviews currently to transcribe for a story that my boss is expecting by the end of the week, ideally. I got confirmation of that at our bi-weekly edit meeting today, and that touched off my anxiety spike. Had to endure it until the evening’s meds and walking helped me calm down. And there’s another interview I’m trying to schedule for Thursday or Friday for a different short piece, so it’s going to be a busy week ahead.
Descript, which I mentioned above, offers an artificial intelligence based transcription feature that the makers say is 96 percent accurate. They have an app too for the Mac computer, but the service requires a subscription which I can’t afford.
More fundamentally, these deadlines for stories play their role in my dreading each day ahead. So they play their role in keeping me from getting out of bed each morning even though that is the one thing that would actually make things better. The earlier I can get out of bed, the more time I can give myself to deal with the day’s work.
So getting out of bed at 8:15 a.m. instead of 8:45 a.m. is serious progress for me. Especially if I can keep it up tomorrow.
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