Slow and steady
August 20, 2020 § Leave a comment
I added a bit of running to my walking today. I started with five minutes of running and thereafter, for every half hour of walking I ran five minutes. This I did a total of three times today, with my usual 90-minute walk in our living room.
The aim is to challenge my heart, very slowly, very incrementally, so that I’m able to keep doing this. No point in running 30 min one day and not being able to follow it up the next. I was telling my wife the other day that one of the positive things of growing older for me has been that I’ve found the ability to think in terms of years rather than days, weeks or months.
So I’m patient and the benefits can accumulate slowly. I’ve now been walking everyday for the last five months, and over that time, my heart palpitations have stopped and I’m convinced that it is the walking that did it. My sleep has improved too. Earlier, I had to get up between 2 a.m. and 3 a.m. to go urinate if I needed to get back to sleep. Now I sleep through the night.
I feel sad sometimes that there was a time when I had one day run just a couple of kilometres shy of 20 km. And now I’m struggling to jog anything more than 3 km. On the flip side, back then, I was quite inconsistent and impatient. It’s the same with lifting weights. There was a time when I would spend hours in a gym one day, achieving a great work out and doing nothing for a few days after. Now, I lift weights every other day, fairly consistently. I do small circuits that take no more than 10 minutes, but I do them regularly — adding an exercise here and an exercise there, very incrementally.
One area where incremental improvement has been painfully slow is my work. This is where I procrastinate, self-sabotage, and fail to find the enthusiasm for an online story a day, and at least one good feature of 2000 words or more for the print magazine. I’ve done better for the current issue of the magazine that will soon go into production. I’ve managed to contribute eight pages. That’s double what my usual contribution has been in recent memory. On the other hand, my online contribution has taken a hit as I worked on the magazine copies.
The aim is to get to at least one online copy everyday, and five to six pages for the magazine, every fortnight. This means keeping abreast of all the important news on my beat, which is all things tech, and the intersection of tech, business and society. Unfortunately, one of the things my depression and anxiety have done to me is that I’ve become really averse to reading the news. But I’ve no choice if I’ve to make progress on writing more online, more consistently, and if I’m to write something insightful.
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