Crisis in the marriage
August 1, 2020 § Leave a comment
Completely stopped Trinicalm Plus (trifluoperazine and some other stuff) from today. Now to see if I can sustain it. Had some minor rumblings by way of withdrawal symptoms and a bit of a sense of unease in the morning. But on the whole today wasn’t bad. Will have to wait to see in about three days. For now I’m still continuing with the Clonazepam, so that should help too. It’s been over two-and-a-half years, so I’m really hoping I’ll be able to get off the meds. I know that a lot of people take these for much longer, but I feel it’s time for me to go this on my own.
I’ve signed up for a meditation session tomorrow online. One of my wife’s yoga teachers is leading it. I’ve been in such a funk the last two-and-a-half years that my wife is very upset over it. She says I’m just not there and that has driven her up the wall. She has said she’ll never forgive me if our son gets depression in the future. That makes me want to disappear into a hole. It also makes me want to get better, but her patience with me has completely run out. There’s a bad crisis in our marriage.
We went to see friends of ours who have little twins who go to primary school. It’s a Saturday ritual for us to have dinner with them. We ordered in and had an assortment of Burmese and a biryani. For dessert, we’d packed gulab jamoons and there was ice cream too. Later tried to whistle some tunes for the twins and get them to sing along. Then we coaxed them to sing songs they knew from school and from movies like Frozen.
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